Stories of Hope

One Day at a Time

I have been self harming for over two years now. I have had several suicide attempts, and I died once (but the doctors electrocuted me back to life). It felt like nobody cared.....and I don't think they did. I have had 13 admissions to the locked ward in a psychiatric hospital, and none have helped. I was once told by a psychiatrist that "I'm beyond help, and that it's only a matter of time." I lost hope completely then, and had another attempt at suicide. When I woke up 2 days later, my GP came to see me, he looked at my arms and said that I needed help, and he would give it to me. This was the first time I felt like someone really wanted to help. I am on new medications now, and although I don't feel better yet, I still have hope. My doctor says just take it one day at a time, and that's what I'm doing. I still cut, but I hope one day I won't.