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Stories of Hope

The Only Way Out

bulletAuthor:    Natalie
bulletAge:        15

I have only been self harming for a short while, less than a year, yet it seems like forever, it doesn't seem like there has ever been a time when the only way to control myself was to cut. I don't remember why I started except that I had read about other people doing it and I thought if it helped them then maybe it would help me. I started cutting when I thought I was pregnant, 14 years old and I had chosen to have unprotected sex, I couldn't believe how stupid I had been but I was too scared to ask for help, so I cut. I felt so alone, I had loads of friends, but none of them knew the real me, I had no one to talk to, until one day I found out one of my best friends was a cutter, and! she helped me so much. even after I discovered I wasn't pregnant, whenever I was depressed I cut, and I've tried to kill myself more times than I can remember (and I cant even do that right!) the last time I tried, I told my best friend what I had done and she saved my life, she rang my mum who rushed me straight to the hospital. since then, which was a couple of months ago, I have realised that so many people love me, and I have found myself less depressed, I haven't stopped cutting, but I know that with the help of the people who love me, I can stop. I know that so many people who cut have been through so much more than I have, and that the last thing people want to hear is, its ok, it will be alright, but people should know that there is someone who loves you, and would want to help, if you're going through the same thing, then the best thing you can do is tell someone, because someone cares. whatever happens, stay hopeful and know that you can get through anything. if anyone wants to talk then email me, I'm always around to listen. good luck and god bless xxxxxx