Stories of Hope

I'm all Happy with Me :)

I haven't cut properly for ages. I stopped a few months ago after telling my doctor who then told my mum. I went to see a child psychiatrist, and pretty much since then I've been fine. I've only had one relapse the whole time, and I'm actually really proud of myself. it took a while, and lots of willpower, but somehow, knowing how much it upset my mum to finally see what had been happening to me made me see what I was doing to myself. I think having a relapse has also helped in a strange way. seeing that blood and crying, and then not being able to change in school it all made me see that I didn't need to do that to myself. I still miss doing it. it will always be a part of me and I know that nothing I can do will change that, but I also know that I don't have to listen to that part of me any more, I'm learning and I think one day ill be able to completely suppress these feelings. for now I have people who I love who'll look after no matter what. thanx to all of you who helped me earlier in the year, it really meant a lot. luv elli.