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Stories of Hope

Healing the Tortured Soul

 

bulletAuthor:    Amanda
bulletAge:        17

 

I just want to thank everyone for their stories...reading them has given me a lot of inspiration and hope that, I too can over come this horrible destruction. I've been a cutter since I was 14, as a way to cope with my eating disorder, and that was to cope with insecurities and self hatred. I guess I've just been running from everything trying to cover on problem with another, not really facing or accepting life's obstacles. Cutting has always just been a crutch for me, something I could always fall back on and rely on when everything things just get to be too much. I know I will always have the scars to remind me of everything I've went through and to remind me of who I really am. People tell me how much they wish they could take them away, but I don't want them to go I've had them so long I don't know what I would do without it I guess. its a hard and long, bumpy journey to recovery, but I'm walking trying not to trip and tumble back to who I've subconsciously created. But I have faith and I'm gaining strength and hope that it'll all be ok someday. I just want everyone to know that, yeah life can be shitty at times...and we have all had our share of pain weather you were emotionally and sexually abused like me or physically or just find it hard to cope. Either way we are all the same...we are all looking for an out. Something that will satisfy us and let go of the pain, even if it is just temporary. We all have to stick together and have faith and believe in each other...I know we can all get through it. You have to want to and you have to have a hell of a lot of determination and strength. Good Luck to everyone....ill be praying for everyone and I hope you will pray for me as well because I'm still cutting, but I'm looking ahead at the good times without the urges, only memories of it all.