Stories of Hope

Why me, help me!!

My family was in a neighbour dispute when I was 7-8 and (this will sound unbelievable) we were wrongly accused, the two families over the road said we had done a lot of things that we hadn't, they would call us obscene things, then ring the police and say we had called them!

In the end Dad was arrested 3 times, the final time (back in June 2000) he was imprisoned for 6 months on the courts of 'threats to kill', the only evidence they had against him was heresy.  The family got together a group of people and they plotted a story against my Dad.

It went on for about 3 years, then we were nearly evicted, but we moved voluntarily.  I was bullied and I was feeling really bad, I couldn't cope with everything, but I never spoke about my feelings, I kept them all locked up inside!

Before we fell out with these neighbours, when I was about 5-6 I was abused by the girl (who was about 10-11 at the time, bearing in mind that I am a girl too) I have NEVER spoke of that to anyone ever.  I began to self harm in about September of 2000 and then I took an overdose in November, Mum, school and everyone found out about my self harm and I was referred to a psychiatrist and a councilor.  Which to be honest didn't help.

I met a girl over the internet who self harms and I found out about a girl in my year at school who also did!

With the help of these two people I am now on my way to recovery.  They have been brilliant and it's coz they understand me that it has helped me to stop.

I just wanna say to everyone out there that you are not alone, and I know you must feel the lowest of the low, like you will never be able to stop, but it is possible,.  I still self harm, but nowhere as near as much as I used to.

Be strong, stick together and we can all fight this addiction!