Stories of Hope

Keep on Truckin

I am 16 years old and I have gone through hell in the past 2 years, but I am coming out of it.  I started cutting 2 years ago and developed a compulsive eating disorder.  I went to several hospitals and nothing was working...I couldn't stop cutting.  Then I realized that I was never going to WANT to stop so I just had to make the decision TO stop.  Even though I didn't like myself at the time I am learning to love myself through God.  I pray a lot, especially at times when I am in trouble.  I pray for others a lot too...my friends have turned their backs on me because they don't understand me.  They don't know that I care about them still and even though it made me mad at first I have learned to forgive.  I have also learned to forgive myself.  I need to be good to myself because a lot of people love me and care about me.  My family and my new friends, and I am learning to love myself also  :)  the key to stopping is thinking about good points about yourself...looking at the glass! Half full half empty...cutting isn't going to do anything about the problem except make things worse for yourself.  I know that I have a purpose in this world and I need to work to get there.  Where ever that may be.

I love you all and keep on truckin!